Not the movie or the books...Just my life. But at least in this story there is a happy ending.
Well first of all,I went to my car the other day to clean it out because it was a complete disaster in there, so I was being the good car taker that I am and was gonna clean it out. Only to discover that I left my back car door unlocked and someone broke into (granted, I did make the heist easier)my car!! argh!! I mean right in my driveway. Not on the street or anything! :( Thankfully they didn't run off with anything good...Just ALL MY CD'S!! (yes, I haven't stepped into the 21st century and gotten an ipod yet) so that swipe was a devastating blow. I think my CD collection and the area I live in don't go together so they are probably somewhere in a ditch as they flipped through and saw UCO recordings and Michael Buble' in the mix and thought "these CD's suck" But I liked them, that's why they were in MY CAR!!! But I guess no crying over spilt milk... Luckily I have itunes and most of my cd's are on there so I guess that's a plus, that and I do plan to succumb and buy an ipod in the near future...
The next thing was that at my first staff meeting I pretty much did everything wrong so in given a second chance they moved me to a new home with brand new girls (there's only one right now) and I must be re-trained I guess. So after getting off at 8am this morning, I must trek back to Riverside to get there by 6 (which means traffic) to start my (drumroll please...)15 hour work day!!! Yes, tonight I will have to be working from 6pm to 8...am...Anyone want to let me sleep over? But hey, I'll probably have a nice looking paycheck...
Friday, July 28, 2006
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Let's just update shall we?
Well let's see, I started the new job and I must say that I enjoy it quite a bit. Everyday something new has been thrown at me where I had to be the adult and make the decisions and not freak out and assume the fetal position... it's pretty hard staying up all night to make sure these pregnant teens don't sneak out but thanks to the summer heat and just the simple fact that they are plain wiped out and have to be up at 6 in the morning, I haven't had to report any AWOL peeps...
Really my job in very much like being an RA but without planning events. I haven't heard the "F bomb" so much since...well high school. Limited vocabulary I guess... but really I think the profane language is the least of their problems... I like having stories to tell when I come home from work. And now I'm done talking about my job...for now.
Segue to today, I started going to a new church out here seeing as how I can't go to Sandals every Sunday. (or can I?) Anyway,he has had a Sermon series on "Security or Insecurity? That is the question" and today he started to talk about how Vision is the greatest asset to Security, I found it rather interesting. and I liked the verse that he used:
"If people can't see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; but when they attend to what He reveals, they are most blessed." Proverbs 29:18
I'll write more later...I'm tired
Really my job in very much like being an RA but without planning events. I haven't heard the "F bomb" so much since...well high school. Limited vocabulary I guess... but really I think the profane language is the least of their problems... I like having stories to tell when I come home from work. And now I'm done talking about my job...for now.
Segue to today, I started going to a new church out here seeing as how I can't go to Sandals every Sunday. (or can I?) Anyway,he has had a Sermon series on "Security or Insecurity? That is the question" and today he started to talk about how Vision is the greatest asset to Security, I found it rather interesting. and I liked the verse that he used:
"If people can't see what God is doing, they stumble all over themselves; but when they attend to what He reveals, they are most blessed." Proverbs 29:18
I'll write more later...I'm tired
Saturday, July 15, 2006
At 3:15 am...most people are sleeping...right?
Maybe I'm trying to accustom myself to being up until 8 in the morning!! (Wow God, this is going to be a test) That's my work schedule, 10pm until 8 am... At least I won't be in traffic when I go to work... gotta do what ya gotta do I guess...
But that's not why I was posting. Complacent Christianity has been racking my brain since small group tour last year. This past week at my church we had "Vacation Bible School" (do you guys still have that?) and one thing that bugged me about it and about that church is that it hasn't changed in like 20 years (I should know, I was born into the church) When I was a kid, VBS was the highlight of my summer, and now I just see how no one is really interested in it if they are over 14 ...but then again what 14 year old is interested in anything?
Something that happened which I don't personally agree with was; when the kids were being quizzed on what they had learned the day before... the kids that normally attend the church were not interested at all in answering any questions and were in their own little world and if you dared to bring them back to reality, you were "putting them on blast" and it irritated and hurt me to know that there are a bunch of complacent Christians that don't want to change... Sure there was a glimmer of hope with those who actually got into it and answered questions...but what about the others?
I'm totally gonna date myself here but while I was thinking, it reminded me of "the Neverending Story", when the creature called "The Nothing" is attacking the very imagination and life of everyone and everything. Eventually, the Nothing destroys it all, and there is nothing left. Mainly, because people didn't care anymore.
I wonder if that is how Christianity suffers next. Simply from nothingness, Christianity could be dealt a severe blow.
It bothers me to think about when was the last time I saw smiling faces on those kids when they are at church...maybe you know that look I'm talking about... that "Look of Nothingness" Its not a smile, its not a frown, its a very complacent and apathetic. The joy of God may be in them, but they're doing everything they can from proving its there.
Maybe I need to do something about it, but that's a whole 'nother long story that I don't want to get into
But just think about it, seeing anyone smile nowadays is a rarity. When you see someone smile, its immediately noticeable. The smile catches on, and it spreads happiness, albeit just for a fleeting moment, but the happiness is spread.
Does anyone else feel like this? What do you think?
*yawn* hmmm...mabye I'm shutting down after all...
But that's not why I was posting. Complacent Christianity has been racking my brain since small group tour last year. This past week at my church we had "Vacation Bible School" (do you guys still have that?) and one thing that bugged me about it and about that church is that it hasn't changed in like 20 years (I should know, I was born into the church) When I was a kid, VBS was the highlight of my summer, and now I just see how no one is really interested in it if they are over 14 ...but then again what 14 year old is interested in anything?
Something that happened which I don't personally agree with was; when the kids were being quizzed on what they had learned the day before... the kids that normally attend the church were not interested at all in answering any questions and were in their own little world and if you dared to bring them back to reality, you were "putting them on blast" and it irritated and hurt me to know that there are a bunch of complacent Christians that don't want to change... Sure there was a glimmer of hope with those who actually got into it and answered questions...but what about the others?
I'm totally gonna date myself here but while I was thinking, it reminded me of "the Neverending Story", when the creature called "The Nothing" is attacking the very imagination and life of everyone and everything. Eventually, the Nothing destroys it all, and there is nothing left. Mainly, because people didn't care anymore.
I wonder if that is how Christianity suffers next. Simply from nothingness, Christianity could be dealt a severe blow.
It bothers me to think about when was the last time I saw smiling faces on those kids when they are at church...maybe you know that look I'm talking about... that "Look of Nothingness" Its not a smile, its not a frown, its a very complacent and apathetic. The joy of God may be in them, but they're doing everything they can from proving its there.
Maybe I need to do something about it, but that's a whole 'nother long story that I don't want to get into
But just think about it, seeing anyone smile nowadays is a rarity. When you see someone smile, its immediately noticeable. The smile catches on, and it spreads happiness, albeit just for a fleeting moment, but the happiness is spread.
Does anyone else feel like this? What do you think?
*yawn* hmmm...mabye I'm shutting down after all...
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
More Sock Rockin' words by my man (and yours) C.S. Lewis...
As the Ruin Falls
All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you.
I never had a selfless thought since I was born.
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through:
I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.
Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek,
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin:
I talk of love --a scholar's parrot may talk Greek--
But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin.
Only that now you have taught me (but how late) my lack.
I see the chasm. And everything you are was making
My heart into a bridge by which I might get back
From exile, and grow man. And now the bridge is breaking.
For this I bless you as the ruin falls. The pains
You give me are more precious than all other gains.
C S Lewis
What a perfect description of the human condition. It conveys with it not only the facts but the feelings as well; the pain of knowing you're not what you want others to think you are...
All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you.
I never had a selfless thought since I was born.
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through:
I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.
Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek,
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin:
I talk of love --a scholar's parrot may talk Greek--
But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin.
Only that now you have taught me (but how late) my lack.
I see the chasm. And everything you are was making
My heart into a bridge by which I might get back
From exile, and grow man. And now the bridge is breaking.
For this I bless you as the ruin falls. The pains
You give me are more precious than all other gains.
C S Lewis
What a perfect description of the human condition. It conveys with it not only the facts but the feelings as well; the pain of knowing you're not what you want others to think you are...
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Praise God from whom all blessings flow...
It's funny how we tend to do that only when things are either really good or really bad... Anyway, that's not why I am writing. I've said before that God has such a funny/amazing way of doing things. I have been at wit's end about my future since as long as I can remember but this summer really tested me to trust because I really had no Idea what was going to happen next since I came back from tour. Like, I had a job offer in Moreno Valley but no where to live if I did take the job. Needless to say, I didn't take the job. I had no clue about so much stuff and it made me so upset and depressed and just this down in the dumps feeling. I had to depend on so many people for just your everyday stuff. But I knew there really had to be a reason for all of this (Sorry if I sound like I'm rambling) During my search,countless interviews for jobs and so many resumes that I put out something just didn't feel right...
I remember maybe last year...(whenever Narnia came out) I was talking to Britt about how I really wanted more out of my walk with God and how I just felt like I was staying in a comfort zone and just a bunch of stuff...
I'm gonna make this long story short before it's too late. I had a job interview yesterday with a group home of teen moms and their kids in Riverside... I got a phone call today to start orientation Tuesday! I'm excited to see how God is going to use me in the lives of these girls...(but not the commute!! ack!) I think it's a little more out of my cushy baby zone and I think God is really going to show me what I'm made of...
So if you ever think about me in your prayers, pray that when I face this new thing I don't fall flat on my face...
There's so much more I want to say but I can't eloquently portray it...anyway...
P.s. side note...If you listen to India.Arie, you gotta hear her new CD Testimony, it's pretty amazing
I remember maybe last year...(whenever Narnia came out) I was talking to Britt about how I really wanted more out of my walk with God and how I just felt like I was staying in a comfort zone and just a bunch of stuff...
I'm gonna make this long story short before it's too late. I had a job interview yesterday with a group home of teen moms and their kids in Riverside... I got a phone call today to start orientation Tuesday! I'm excited to see how God is going to use me in the lives of these girls...(but not the commute!! ack!) I think it's a little more out of my cushy baby zone and I think God is really going to show me what I'm made of...
So if you ever think about me in your prayers, pray that when I face this new thing I don't fall flat on my face...
There's so much more I want to say but I can't eloquently portray it...anyway...
P.s. side note...If you listen to India.Arie, you gotta hear her new CD Testimony, it's pretty amazing
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