Seeds...

So as a Behaviorial Science major and being a really good listener, I've discovered through the years that at some point in our lives there was a time when we thought that life was the pits. That no one understood what was going on, we weren't comfortable with ourselves, something in life happened that was tramatic, the list goes on and on. This is a genuine feeling, I'm not the exception to the rule in any way. But what I also discovered is that somewhere along the line, we either buried it, got over it, allow it to shape our personality in some way...for the good or for the bad. Hopefully if we are Christians we see where God delivered us from that bad time, or a person that helped us realize that God had delivered us from the bad time and we need to go from that point and live life.
Where the heck am I going with this boring blog?? Well, I've been thinking lately... And I'm figuring stuff out in my head as I type... So bear with me. Due to the theft of my CD's during the summer AND then my ipod in the fall, I have been confined listen to the radio every now and then just for ambient noise because let's face it, alot of the music out these days suck. So between "Fergilicious" and "Smack That"(I'm guessing that's the name of these songs) I hear the rapper Ludacris and still not a big fan of him either but I listened to him rap these lyrics:

Little erica is eleven years old
Shes steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops x to get rid of all the pain
Cause shes havin sex with a boy whos sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks shes in love
So theres no protection hes usin no glove
Never thinkin bout the consequences of her actions
Livin for today and not tomorrows satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he aint ready for a kid
Knowin her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say shes about to run away and never come back.

Not the happiest lyrics in the world, right? But it hit me that there is some little girl out there that feels like Ludacris is looking in the window of her life. I can say I worked with quite a few of them a few months ago. And I recently got offered a job (the one I was worried about) where I will be working with girls like this again. Not pregnant this time but still alot of hurt.
So at work, I had to give my two weeks notice and let them know what I would be doing and they asked how they could pray for me. I told them that for the most part, my goal in life is to be a blessing and not a burden to the people I come in contact with and I know that I will only be interacting with these girls for a short time but I want to somehow show them that there is something better. And my co-worker said "you want to plant a seed. that will nurture and grow into a tree" and as corny as that sounds, I was like... yeah!
It's funny how at this point in my life God wants me to be planter of seeds...when I feel like I'm just grasping the seeds of my own that's helping me grow. Most likely there will be more on this at a later date but we'll see.

i think I found a new show...

So I keep hearing a lot about this Heroes Show and how awesome it is. So I had to check it out for myself and I must admit that I could be a fan of it! I'm going to have to catch up on previous episodes but I like what I saw last night. So yeah I recommend you start watching if you haven't... it looks like it'll be a cool show.
And in the real world, I need to say that I HATE the job searching process...I hate the interviews, the applications, the résumé’s... all that jazz!! I wish I could find a job that I could stay in for a long time. Right now I'm in limbo as to whether I got a job that I was interviewed twice for. (They need to officially call me) or keep the one I worked part time for (which doesn't work for someone who has full-time status needs...ex. health insurance...yeah I have to find my own now...signs that society thinks you're a grown up) and moving back home to save money and all that jazz...I wish there was an easier way. But Jesus says, "Do not be anxious for anything" and even though money is a good/annoying thing. There are other things in the world that are far better...

Tiddy Bear For Cars

I saw this on my music pastor's blog...I love Sandals!!

how do you do it?

So I've had this silly blog for awhile now and I still don't know how to add other people that i read to my blog. i guess that's pretty pathetic...so somehow I'm going to get help with that. If you are one of the like 4 people who read this, maybe you could help me (wink, wink)
Anyway, my decisions resolution (which means the same thing...hmmm) is going good I think, but one thing is that everything is happening super fast. I didn't think I'd be thrown into so many situations at once. it just seems really, really fast and this time, you can't slow down...you would think after school you could but nope! it just goes...talk about being thrown into it! oh well... time for bed.
P.S. Can someone tell southern california it doesn't snow?! I did not sign up for this...I'm flippin COLD people!!

IT'S SNOWING!!!!

That is the phrase that I heard all morning from my kids at work. "Miss Campbell!!!! It's snowing!!!!!!" I thought it was cute seeing little bundles with legs running around in the "snow". I'm guessing it was snow, it was too soft to be hail and too solid to be rain, and it was't quite sleet either. So, let's just call it snow. either way I was NOT prepared to be working in 39 degree weather with whatever it was falling from the sky. I was COLD, but I guess I'm always cold so that is nothing new. The way those kids were acting you would have thought it was a blizzard but it did not stop them from playing outside which I thought waas insane because it was freezing but the teachers said "they need this time outside, you can't keep them cooped up inside all day!" Which I think is code for "I'm not ready to deal with these little monsters yet so let them freeze!! If enough of them get sick, I don't have to work!" Anyway that was the excitement of my morning...I knew I should have stayed in bed...but then again I like my job.

just a bit of cuteness really...

So the library at the school I work at is doing a Spotlight on C.S. Lewis because the older students are beginning to read the Chronicles of Narnia, therefore the library is decorated like the land of Narnia. It is really quite cool. My kindergarteners were certian that we were going to watch the movie so they began to tell me the plot of the movie and how Aslan the Lion was Jesus and all of that. So I told them that it is a book too and of course I have a couple of "know it all" kindergarteners and one in particular was eager to tell me who wrote the Chronicles of Narnia, and it went something like this:
Kid: Miss Campbell, I know who wrote the Chronicles of Narnia!!
Me: You Do?! Who wrote it?
Kid: Silly Lewis!!

It was the greatest thing I heard and I thought I'd pass it along...

Photogenic?

So my folks decided that I needed to take Sr. Pictures. For personal reasons, I don't like pictures of myself...but hey, you guys will like them...
I kind of felt like I was in High School again but whatever...enjoy!

meet my new husband!!!

well not quite...but I did enjoy this actor very much in the movie Dreamgirls. He doesn't have a very big part or a show stopping number, he's just so cute!! hahaha... I'm quite biased about this movie and i really really loved it. If you're not into musicals, you won't like it. Since Dreamgirls is one of my favorite musicals, it can do no wrong... And like i said I thought it was good...don't hate me if you don't like it. K, that's it for now...

2007!!! Here it is...

I stole this from Matt so shoot me
1.) Where did you ring in 2006?
With Alison at some Sandals Party

2.) What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
Single as always

3.) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
Yep!

4.) How did you earn your keep?
It started off at the computer Lab and as an RA and ended up with me working at a group home forever and at a Christian School
5.) Did you ever have to go to the hospital?
Just to visit Alison
6.) Did you encounter the police?
After my car accident
7.) Where did you go on vacation?
Vacation?

8.) What did you purchase that was over $500?
Agamemnon my computer and Chuck my Jeep
9.) Did you know anybody who got married?
Denielle and Daniel, Amanda and Bobby, Sarah and her husband, Rachel and Adam, Kerry and Daniel...I go to CBU people, everyone gets married!
10.) Did you know anybody who passed away?
Not that I can think of

11.) Have you run into anybody you graduated high school with?
My really good friend Lorenzo and I met up, also via internet a few more friends
12.) Did you move anywhere?
Yep
13.) What sporting events did you go to?
none, i worked
14.) What concerts did you go to?
Tyrone Wells
15.) Are you registered to vote?
Yes

16.) If so, did you do your patriotic duty on Nov. 7?
Nope. I am a bad citizen.

17.) Where do you live now?
Riverside, CA

18.) Describe your birthday.
i think I threw myself a party at Bri's apt and we watched Rent

19.) What’s the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2006?
Quit Choir and survive lol...

20.) What is one thing you regretted this year?
I didn't graduate in May
21.) What’s something you learned about yourself?
I learned how immature I actually was and how much growing up i needed to do and have done. I'm learning how to let go and how not to let everything disappoint me
22.) Any new additions to your family?
hahaha!! Ginger my brother's dog
23.) What was your best month?
It has to have been December...weight was just lifted and I FINALLY graduated
24.) For what pop culture landmarks will you remember 2006?
I discovered Grey's Anatomy, the Crocodile Hunter died
25.) How would you rate this year with a scale from 1 (crappy) to 10 (excellent)?
This has been a great year. Much better than 05. I’ll go with an 8.

So now that I looked back at 2006, I am looking forward to 2007. New Year's can be exciting looking back at what happened and then changing hopefully for the better. I've made a few goals for myself, this looks like it's going to be a year of alot of changes for me and I'm looking forward to see what happens. so excuse the pun but Bring it on Baby!!

I look like Eddie Murphy

Apparently I look the most like Eddie Murphy...hmmm...but then again I resemble Mike Myers too...

how true...

" I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody" - Bill Cosby

decisions...decisions...

So I hardly make New Year's resolutions because I always break them but I thought I'd take a chance. So my New Year's Resolution is to make decisions. This is a bigge for me actually because anyone who hangs out with me knows that I can be the mose indecisive person on the planet. So, that's my decision. and I started already. I decided that I didn't want to have 2 jobs anymore so I quit one and i have my nights and weekends back! But I do have a plan so I'm not making stupid decisions...Sadly that means that I won't be in Riverside much longer but actually I'm seeing more and more that it's ok...anyway, more on that later

just a little freaked out...

So, I was a victim to idiots racing on the freeway...another reason why I hate driving and working graveyard I'm ok but my wonderful Jeep "Chuck" isn't. He's a lil' banged up. That makes me sad :( and it freaked me out too. My first accident. not my fault but in the eyes of the insurance holders it could be because I hit him but it's not my fault that he was being an idiot driver! it was scary I say. And all I could think was that I could have died (not being overly dramatic here, I'm lucky) So don't tell your moms, i'm ok and pray that everything gets fixed and I get a new job... how's that for an after graduation blog...

I wonder what I will blog about now...

So, the ONE time I ever watched Sex in the City, one of the ladies was throwing a shower for herself and she said something along the lines of "After you graduate from college besides your birthday, if you are single you are no longer celebrated... No showers, no weddings no anniversaries...nothin"
I must admit, if you look it that way, it'll make you sad...BUT NOT ME!!! :D DUDE!!! I'M DONE!!!! I am graduating in 2 days!! I'm finally excited!. Sure it took me a little longer than others but I feel that's just how I operate sometimes, I'm a step behind but I'll get there.
The only thing that is bittersweet is that fact that it is December and just as much as everyone else is excited to get out of school, they can say "Ok I'll see you in 3 weeks"...Nope I won't see people after the break because I don't have classes in the spring. Sad but exciting all the same. I guess I have to just keep my blogs and not commit social suicide because we all know that without one of these things you just don't exist... lol
So if I don't see you tomorrow or at the graduation, friends, have a wonderful Christmas, I love you all dearly, there is really no way I could have done this without you guys. You are really part of the product you see today wether you like it or not but if you are my friend, you most likely like it. I may be gone but I'm not dead so I expect to hear from you and heaven knows you really can't keep away from "the Bapper" no matter how hard you try so I'll pop up here and there sometimes!

Should I sue?!

So I've been coughing like a smoker for what I feel like all semester but I could be exaggerating... whatever, Anyway the last time I went to the dr. I had bronchitis and was given robitussin, now they tell me that that was not the right medicine I should be taking and that I need to take flippin' dimatapp! how lame is that! and that's after I had to call my insurance 4 times so that I could find the correct Dr. to go to cuz appearently CBU doesn't use parkview anymore...ugh I say!
In other news, if I really work hard tonight I can officially be done with all my work! maybe then I can be excited about graduating...Ok that's all I think for now.

But now I found one more thing...it what I learned in my Stokes class.
"The establishment of a Christian home is dependant on a Christian man taking the responsibility and the lead. It will not happen if he is coerced by his wife of if he feels incompetent to take the lead. Our congregations must teach men how to be godly men first in their homes, then in congregation and society. We are at a crisis. for too long, men have not led the way. The key to making a Christian home is a man who will love his wife as Christ loved the church, who will provide, nurture, and watch carefully over his children as God does for us. He will do this because he is obedient and trusting of his God who acts in this same manner toward him. A Christian home depends on a man who is in proper relationship with his God, his wife, and his children".

Thank God for those of you who found men like this, thank God for those of you who are aspiring to be like this, and Thank God for ladies who want guys like this...

what it all boils down to...

ok, so if you know anything about my life, you know that I am writing a Sr. Project, and instead of you reading 25 pages of what I wrote (I don't even want to read it) I'll give you the cliff's notes about what psychologists are saying about the youth's attitude towards God and religion.
The main thing is that they've summed up their beliefs into a "creed" called Moralistic Therapeutic Deism (say that three times fast) which is:

1. A God exists who created and orders the world and watches over human life on earth.

2. God wants people to be good, nice, and fair to each other, as taught in the Bible and by most world religions.

3. The central goal of life is to be happy and to feel good about oneself.

4. God does not need to be particularly involved in one’s life except when God is needed to resolve a problem.

5. Good people go to heaven when they die.

What makes me sad is that if this is what the church is teaching our young people, we are NOT teaching the truth, and if this our young people's view of Jesus, it breaks my heart that he's been boiled down to a "Moralistic therapeutic diety". And we are raising up a very selfish generation... trust me I could go on and on about this topic ( I feel like I did I mean, 25 pages! geez!!)

I almost need to be pinched...

So my graduation announcements came in the mail today. that kind of makes it real. I mean, sure once I'm done with my work and stuff I'll say the same thing. But seriously these are pretty much my final days at CBU...more on that later. I gotta go.

i think these are my favorite words by my man Ozzie Chambers :)

Perseverance means more than endurance— more than simply holding on until the end. A saint’s life is in the hands of God like a bow and arrow in the hands of an archer. God is aiming at something the saint cannot see, but our Lord continues to stretch and strain, and every once in a while the saint says, "I can’t take any more." Yet God pays no attention; He goes on stretching until His purpose is in sight, and then He lets the arrow fly. Entrust yourself to God’s hands. Is there something in your life for which you need perseverance right now? Maintain your intimate relationship with Jesus Christ through the perseverance of faith. Proclaim as Job did, "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him" ( Job 13:15 ).

Faith is not some weak and pitiful emotion, but is strong and vigorous confidence built on the fact that God is holy love. And even though you cannot see Him right now and cannot understand what He is doing, you know Him. Disaster occurs in your life when you lack the mental composure that comes from establishing yourself on the eternal truth that God is holy love. Faith is the supreme effort of your life— throwing yourself with abandon and total confidence upon God.

God ventured His all in Jesus Christ to save us, and now He wants us to venture our all with total abandoned confidence in Him. There are areas in our lives where that faith has not worked in us as yet— places still untouched by the life of God. There were none of those places in Jesus Christ’s life, and there are to be none in ours. Jesus prayed, "This is eternal life, that they may know You . . ." ( John 17:3 ). The real meaning of eternal life is a life that can face anything it has to face without wavering. If we will take this view, life will become one great romance— a glorious opportunity of seeing wonderful things all the time. God is disciplining us to get us into this central place of power.

humble yourself in the sight of...

Are we only to humble ourselves before God? Or do we humble ourselves before man as well, especially when it comes to our authorities? Is there a fine line between humility and self worth? are they even in the same boat? I have an answer...what do you think?

this is something I will never understand...

God created us to be beings of relationships... "it is not good for man to be alone..." God says, so he created Eve for Adam and then they start a family (sibling rivilary at it's finest)...
So maybe I'm looking at this from Seth's point of view (that was the third child of Adam and Eve...) How did he feel? I mean he lost one brother and then his other brother was banished, never to be spoken to again... One day he had two brothers that he knew didn't get along for whatever reason and now, he's got none. His family is broken...
So you may be thinking "Danielle, where are you going with this?" and since maybe a total of 3 people actually read this, I'll let you know. My brothers frustrate the crap out of me. I'll actually say that when I see my friends interact with their siblings, I get jealous...Sure, we love each other, but it seems as if they want nothing to do with me. maybe 6 and 3 years is too far apart for interaction...it's gotten better, but I know I force a relationship with them. Why am I pouring out my heart like this? I recently had a conversation that bugged me. My brother's favorite term with me is "Don't worry about me" or "Why does that matter to you?" and with a brother like mine, I can't help it. I don't understand how a person could want that! No one to care about them? So much so that you get annoyed when people call you and ask how you are? I can expect that from friends, not family...and the wierd thing is that I don't get that from my friends. Anyway, I gotta go to work, but hopefully I can continue this later